lunes 29 de abril de 2002 4:06:00 PM
i have a new layout. Ü i was going to publish it on may 1 but i just found out that i'll be out with my family from tomorrow until may 2, so i uploaded this summer layout already. Ü tell me whatchu think. Ü
anyway, we're going to iba, zambales tomorrow with my relatives. i don't want to go swimming. waaaah. i just want to stay home & watch the nba playoffs! hmpf. i don't want to go jet skiing either. hmpf. i'm tired of that sport already & i'm not really any good at it. Ü
sábado 27 de abril de 2002 9:08:00 PM
what is wrong with me? i'm not in the mood to do anything at all. i just want to lie down outside & stare at the empty sky. it's so weird. i feel so hollow. it's like hunger strikes me not at the pit of my stomach but only in my head. i don't have the energy to eat, to sleep, to do anything. i can't even write down decent thoughts. look at me, i'm fumbling with my words. i don't know what to say & yet i think like as if i have so much bottled up inside. i want to just blurt out everything in a sudden gush of emotion. then again, there's nothing. i'm empty. & there's nothing anyone can do to lift my spirits up. i know it's up to me. i need to make a big leap & take on some change to better myself. i have acknowledged this sad fact, still i am not able to do anything about it. well, it's more of i don't know how to go about the change i need, the change i want. i just want to be happy.
it sucks. this feeling i have inside has to go away before i drive myself insane. i just really feel so... so... hmmm... i actually don't feel anything. akkk!
sábado 20 de abril de 2002 9:22:00 AM
i watched the scorpion king with my sister yesterday. too morbid for my taste if you ask me. i also bought two shirts yesterday, a pair of pants, a pair of shorts & foot scrub. whee. i still want to go shopping. i need more clothes! =/
come on baby come on baby
you knew it was time to just let go
cause we wanna be free
but somehow it's just not that easy
come on darling hear me darling
cause you're a waste of time for me
i'm trying to make you see
that baby you just got to release me
~wilson phillips
i need 365 pesos for my edsamail account. =~(
jueves 18 de abril de 2002 2:33:00 PM WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER.
i'm back. i probably won't be blogging as often as i used to but i'm not going on hiatus anymore. even if sadness controls my life right now, i will still keep my sanity. to the "one" or to those who are trying to pull me down, thank you. you have given me the courage to face whatever it is i am going through right now. anyway, love goes out to jackie. thanks gurl. & hugs for nino, mace, & katia.
i'm changing the content of my site soon. not the layout, just the content. watch out for more thingies to read & then maybe you'd know the real me. i'll upload it in 5-7 days.
martes 9 de abril de 2002 9:12:00 PM
my friends & i spent the afternoon together. we just bummed around in my friend's room. it was fun because we all missed each other. we made chika about the usual stuff & ate chips & mangoes (yum!) we even went to the nearby mall here in marikina & watched a movie. we, of course, had to go home after the movie since it was already pretty late (around 8pm) considering the fact that we didn't have an actual ride to bring us home. we had to take the tricycle. wheee. hehe. Ü
lunes 8 de abril de 2002 5:30:00 PM
i'm back from boracay! Ü this explains why i was gone for a whole week. well, everything was great. the beach, the food, the people... Ü there were only a few cutie guys though. most of the boys were either too old or too foreign for my taste. what can i say, i like filipino boys. so sue me. Ü i wore my blue bikini most of the time. Ü i didn't get to wear my one-piece suit though because everyone was showing off skin so i guess i had to do that as well. i have tan lines. wheee. Ü we went swimming, boating, snorkeling, & fishing. ooh, snorkeling was so fun. the fish were really cooperative. they kept showing up at my face. they were so beautiful in different shades of yellow, blue, green, pink, purple, white, & black, & etc. there was even this fish with pink & green scales. wow. Ü on the other hand, fishing was quite frustrating for me. i didn't catch anything at all. my dad was pretty good at it though. he caught 3 fishes. 2 were small but the last one was big. Ü
my sister & i have the highlights of the boracay trip on video. i know we looked stupid when we were holding the video cam & recording ourselves inside the restaurants, the plane, on the boat, while shopping... we practically video taped ourselves even if it made no sense anymore. haha. it was so much fun. Ü
i wish i could go back to boracay with my friends or any similar place. i just realized that someone's night scene will go down the drain if you spend it with your parents. i mean, dinner with my parents was fine & they actually agreed to let me drink one light beer but hello?! Ü hehe. on the first night of our boracay trip, my sister & i went into one of the bars at around 11pm. we left our parents at this place which served great shakes after they had shakes & my sister & i had margarita. (i think it's called jonah. i forgot.) anyway, so we went to this bar & we ordered red horse beer. my sister & i drank a bottle each & we even got free shots of ginpom from the bartender who i think was crushing on me. joke. haha. he was just really nice & there were only 2 groups of customers left plus me & my sister so i guess that is why we got the free drink. anyway, a few minutes later after my sister & i finished our beer. my mom actually came looking for us & she was waiting at the door of the bar. jeez. so there, the party had to end for me & my sister. we went back to our hotel. phoo. hehe. oh wellz, thassit. on our second night in boracay, i think studio 23 was there or was it on our third night?! hmm, whatever. Ü
wow, this is getting to be a really long blog. Ü
a while ago, my mom & i went to watch e.t. awww. drew barrymore was so cute. Ü & the casting was also great because the kids & the mom looked alike. unlike here in the philippines, most of the movies with a family in it have actors & actresses who are so not alike in any manner at all. i think they just get actors & actresses randomly here for as long as they're popular or they can act well. like as if they're really meant for the role. whatever. Ü i think it's like for example, they get jimmy santos to be the brother of herbert bautista. weh. where's the similarity? how on earth could they be related to each other? (i watched this flick on cable starring the two actors i mentioned when we were in kalibo, aklan this past week.)
i miss someone. Ü take a wild guess who. haha. whatever! Ü
i just took this test:
You're confident, know your abilities and always try to challenge your limits. You know exactly what you want and how to get it. You're not satisfied until the matter is finished the way you wanted, and above all you rely on yourself and not others.
Who are YOU?
lunes 1 de abril de 2002 12:36:00 AM
softly, gently, i will let you down
cause i don't love you in the same way now
i can hold you but not with lover's arms
cause you are more of a brother to me now
& i can lie next to you but i can't lie to you
so walk into the sun & watch me run into the rain
for you the future's easy so don't weep
from here, it's getting steep
i loved you for exactly who you are
& i'd say you've come the nearest yet by far
& i can lie next to you but i can't lie to you
so walk into the sun & watch me run into the rain
for you the future's easy so don't weep
from here, it's getting steeper
& in the dark that's where i want to be
deeper, i'm going somewhere you won't want to see
so walk into the sun & watch me run into the rain
for you the future's easy so don't weep
yes i will watch you
walk into the sun & watch me run into the raindrops
for you the future's easy so don't weep
from here, it's getting steep
