viernes 31 de mayo de 2002 7:10:00 PM
i gave chap a gift a while ago. i promised to get him one & i did. i got him this star wars walkie talkie thingie from jollibee. Ü i don't have money anymore but he was worth it. we met up a while ago just for a short while cause i still had to go somewhere else. Ü & before we parted ways he was like "uyy, kiss!" hahaha. *kilig* Ü
[ chap ] call you later? or call me?
[ alla ] uhm, call me.
[ chap ] okay. text me okay?
[ alla ] i will. bye.
[ chap ] uyy, kiss.
*kisses*
i also spent the afternoon with my soulmate, my best friend, aiza. Ü her little brother was tagging along with us & i suddenly felt so old. OMG! hahaha. Ü we just went around the mall & ate & played some video games.
i'm seeing chap tomorrow evening again. i can't wait. Ü i'm so in love. Ü
oh yeah, i almost forgot... chap & i fought last night. hahaha. it was so weird. i got angry because i waited up for him until 2:30 in the morning & he came home drunk. jeez! then he got a little mad because i hung up the phone on him before he could even say he misses me. i was acting like a worried girlfriend last night. waaah! we're not even a couple yet. hahaha. Ü anyway, he apologized for the whole thing & we're okay now. Ü i miss him so much already. Ü
miércoles 29 de mayo de 2002 10:49:00 PM
[ chap ] damn, i can't stop thinking about you!
[ alla ] ano? really?
[ chap ] nde nga, can't stop talaga.
just finished talking to chap. *sigh* anyway, hafta catch some sleep. i have to wake up early tomorrow. Ü & besides, i have to meet up with chap in my dreams. haha. Ü corny, i know. Ü
[ chap ] ayon, so lumaki ako walang nagturo sa akin mag-court.
[ alla ] ahhh.
[ chap ] d'bale dein na uso yon.
[ alla ] uso pa ah.
[ chap ] o sige teach mo nga ako.
[ alla ] what do you want to know ba?
[ chap ] pano ka ba ligawan?
*silence* (super kinilig ako)
[ chap ] uyy, tongue tied.
[ alla ] loko.
*laughter* (just easy laughter with warm fuzzy feelings floating in the air)
8:47:00 AM
on the telly last night:
*chap yawns*
[ alla ] you sleepy?
[ chap ] quite.
[ alla ] you want to rest na?
[ chap ] just hearing your voice makes me relax.
[ alla ] haha. you talaga.
[ chap ] mga linya talaga noh?
[ alla ] oo nga.
[ chap ] i wish you were here.
[ alla ] really?
[ chap ] yup, just here, right beside me.
i miss chap. i'm seeing him on saturday again. i wish it was sooner but he's so busy. it's okay though because his reasons are valid anyway. Ü hmm, just wanted to plug this pretty person who's celebrating her birthday tomorrow: jackie. send her lots of love. Ü
[ chap ] i miss you.
[ alla] huh?
[ chap ] i miss you.
[ alla ] ano?
[ chap ] wala.
[ alla ] i miss you.
[ chap ] i miss you.
[ alla ] huu, hindi naman eh.
[ chap ] edi hindi.
[ alla ] sira ulo, you're supposed to disagree & tell me you miss me.
[ chap ] ah, ganon ba?!
*laughter*
martes 28 de mayo de 2002 10:31:00 AM
[ alla ] i think you're cute.
[ chap ] i think you're cuter.
[ alla ] no way.
[ chap ] crush nga kita eh.
i watched the replay of the lakers-kings game last night on espn while talking to chap on the telly. Ü although we both knew the outcome of the game, we were still screaming like as if the end of the game could still change. Ü he was cheering for the lakers & i was cheering for sacramento. Ü when the game ended, we were still discussing it. haha. basketball freaks! anyway, i miss him. he's off to buy plants for their garden at home. Ü
[ chap ] (whispering) i miss you.
[ alla ] what?
[ chap ] haha. i won't repeat it.
[ alla ] i miss you.
[ chap ] i miss you.
lunes 27 de mayo de 2002 1:30:00 PM
how can you not fall in love when he proved himself to be real? Ü
[ chap ] what did you think of me when you first saw me?
[ alla ] i thought you were gay.
*laughter*
[ alla ] what did you think of me?
[ chap ] when we met?
[ alla ] uh-huh.
[ chap ] i thought you were pretty.
i overreacted. now i know that i shouldn't listen to the shit that other people tell me. i trust chap. i trust in his honesty. Ü
domingo 26 de mayo de 2002 12:40:00 PM
how can it end when it never even began? a realization just hit me & suddenly i'm sad. & yes, it has everything to do with chap. :`(
...we often fool ourselves & say that it's love only cause when it's gone, we end up being lonely. so how are we to know that it just wasn't so? that we just have to let each other go?... ~side a.
& with the words of my soulmate, my best-est friend, aiza, my soul bleeds... "i guess when reality steps in, the dreaming ends." :`(
2:02:00 AM
just got home from kissing chap. Ü everything's so wonderful. Ü i'm in love with him. Ü i really am. Ü he's so wonderful. Ü i miss him already. Ü
sábado 25 de mayo de 2002 1:43:00 AM
[ alla ] what naman did you do today? kanina pa ako kwento ng kwento, nde ka nagsasalita.
[ chap ] eh gusto ko lang marinig voice mo eh.
*alla smiles.*
viernes 24 de mayo de 2002 10:46:00 AM
[ chap ] know what i wanna do right now?
[ alla ] what?
[ chap ] kiss you.
*big smiles.*
I would take the stars out of the sky for you
Stop the rain from falling if you asked me to
I'd do anything for you your wish is my command
I could move a mountain when your hand is in my hand
Words cannot express how much you mean to me
There must be some other way to make you see
If it takes my heart and soul you know I'd pay the price
Everything that I possess i'd gladly sacrifice
Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby
To you I guess I'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby, oh baby
You give me just a taste of love to build my hopes upon
You know you got the power girl to keep me holding on
So now you got the best of me
Come on and take the rest of me
Oh baby
Though you're close to me we seem so far apart
Maybe given time you'll have a change of heart
If it takes forever girl then i'm prepared to wait
The day you give your love to me, won't be a day too late
Oh you to me are everything
the sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby
To you I guess i'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby, oh baby
You give me just a taste of love to build my hopes upon
You know you got the power girl to keep me holding on
So now you got the best of me
Come on and take the rest of me
Oh baby
he sang that song for me when we were inside the car last wednesday. Ü ~you to me are everything by: the real thing. Ü
jueves 23 de mayo de 2002 11:28:00 PM
chap's not yet home.
via sms:
[ alla ] just finished talking to aiza. i'm sleepy but i can't sleep yet. maybe i'm thinking of you too much. although i don't think i can think of you too much cause i can't get enough of you.. i simply can't.
[ chap ] i'm here at the holiday inn. i'm thinking of you too. can't wait to go home so i can talk to you.
Ü i miss him so much already. his younger sister told me that chap said i'm his habibi. that's an arabic term for "darling" or "beloved". Ü *kilig*
12:20:00 PM
[ alla ] what if i'm already in love with you?
[ chap ] what if i am?
*alla smiles*
[ chap ] i just want to be with you.
[ alla ] me too.
*alla hugs chap*
a few minutes after he brought me home...
via sms: [ chap ] call me. i'm home.
*alla calls chap*
[ chap ] hello?
[ alla ] hi.
[ chap ] hi. i miss you.
*alla melts*
akkk. i can't get him out of my head. it's really crazy. this feeling is so intoxicating. Ü i can still smell him, i can still hear his voice, i can still feel him. somewhere in my thoughts, he lingers. dark & silent, like shadows of a love yet to be found. omg. Ü
[ guy friend ] uyy, tingnan nyo itong si chap oh, bago lahat... bago kotse, bago bahay, pati shirt bago...
[ chap ] pare, pati nga shorts ko bago.
*guy friend looks. laughter*
[ guy friend ] shorts din nga noh. pati girlfriend bago.
[ alla ] bakit sino ba girlfriend ni chap?
*chap looks at alla. alla stares back.*
[ chap ] sino nga ba?
*chap smiles.*
[ alla ] sino nga?
*alla smiles.*
i'm happy. Ü
miércoles 22 de mayo de 2002 10:42:00 AM
[ chap ] i'm listening to this song & it reminds me of you.
[ alla ] really? what song?
[ chap ] don't worry. it's kinda mellow.
[ alla ] i thought rock songs remind you of me.
[ chap ] huh? why?
[ alla ] cause baby, i rock your world.
awww... *sweet* the conversation yesterday went something like that. Ü i'm super *kilig*. actually, this was just via sms because he was out the whole day yesterday. Ü
got this link from lei & the test says i am:
Glamorous
You exude confidence about your looks and always keep an eye out for opportunities to enhance your appearance. Pretty lipsticks, gorgeous scents, and a sinful extra hour in the sun (with sunscreen) — these are things you simply cannot resist, so long as they show off your best features. You rarely buy something just for fun, or pamper yourself just because. If it doesn't make you look your best, then you don't need it.
You are well aware that beauty is only skin deep, so you take care to keep your skin free from blemishes and oil. You not only like to feel gorgeous, you want to feel that way too, hence experiments with new scents and soaps. Confidence is obviously a wonderful thing, but you sometimes forget to think about the future. An ounce of prevention now will keep your skin tight and soft in the future.
martes 21 de mayo de 2002 1:59:00 AM new guestbook! it took me more than an hour to fix the layout of my new guestbook. haha. Ü hmmm... i miss someone.
lunes 20 de mayo de 2002 2:47:00 AM
from anna's site.
1 minute ago: i was talking to this guy friend of mine.
1 hour ago: i was talking to another guy friend.
1 day ago: i was lying on my bed, sleeping.
1 year ago: i was in love with anton.
Words to describe the situation now: crazy, amazing, *kiligz*
things i want: long legs.
songs i listen to: slow songs.
things accomplished: i fixed my stuff & threw out the junk.
windows open: 1 browser window (ie).
things around the computer: mobile phone, charger, slippers
lyrics: tale as old as time. true as it can be. barely even friends then somebody bends unexpectedly. ~beauty & the beast.
Random: *sigh* am i falling?
Spell your name backwards: ALLA
where do you live: Marikina City, Philippines
describe yourself in three words: uncertain, pretty, & fat
who is your worst enemy? can't think of anyone
if you could have ANY animal for a pet, what would it be? a cute puppy.
what is the latest you've ever stayed up? one time, i didn't sleep at all.
ever been to belgium? yup.
toothbrush? a white & purple one.
jewelry worn daily: earrings & a smile.
shoes: i like my old sneakers.
nail polish: plum nail polish for me!
perfume: eternity.
CD in stereo right now: my decut CD
tatoos: none.
piercings: one on my left ear, two on my right ear.
current music: what everybody knows
wearing: white shirt, green shorts
hair: currently in a ponytail.
makeup: powder & lipstick's fine on regular days.
in my mouth: saliva.
in my head: school shit!
after this: i'll turn off the pc & drag my ass to bed.
sábado 18 de mayo de 2002 8:40:00 PM
did a couple of changes to the layout & i finished my autobigraphy thingie. i also got myself a new guestbook & i'm going to edit it tomorrow so right now it's stuck with a default template layout. that's it, i guess. yehey. i'm off. i'm going out. toodles.
viernes 17 de mayo de 2002 3:03:00 PM
uploaded everything. the only thing screwing up is the guestbook. i think getstring is down. boo-hoo. nwayz, here's something i wrote out of boredom: (haha)
i stand alone in the rain as the drops silently fall around me. i watch as the water seeps into the ground, making the grass greener. the smell of rain is everywhere, fresh & old. i lick my lips. the rain is sweet. i feel water trickling down my arms right down to my fingertips.
& i cry.
not because of the rain. it was the fact that i was alone. & i cry more. the tears flow from my eyes, heavy like the rain from the sky. i lick my lips. the tears were anything but sweet.
i slowly put my arms around myself & drag myself into the house.
if i spent more time standing alone in the rain, i just might lose my sanity... or catch a cold. i don't know what's worse.
that's it. i know it sucks but what the hell? haha. Ü nwayz, a hug & plug for this wonderful person, jackie. Ü i think i'm going out with my friends later. yehey! Ü
12:21:00 AM
i'm going to move to my new home as soon as i finish the layout i'm working on. Ü i'll probably finish it in an hour or something. i can't wait to upload it. haha. Ü
i'm off to school to fix a few things. wish me lots of luck. Ü
domingo 12 de mayo de 2002 9:58:00 PM
happy mum's day. i gave my mom flowers, a book, & a card. Ü our relatives also came over to our house for lunch. my family took care of all the food because we have 3 reasons to celebrate: mother's day, my dad's promotion, & my brother passed the board for chemical engineering. Ü i fell asleep on the couch at around 4pm because my body ached. i was helping my mom prepare everything the whole morning. we had the food cooked by someone else & we paid for it but of course, we still had to do a lot of things. i even prepared the salad. Ü wheee...
last night was nice. i went out with my beshtie, ayzuh & some guys friends. Ü we went to timog (qc) & stayed in quattro for a few hours. i had to be home by 1am (curfew) but the thing is, we left the place at around 1:15 & we didn't go straight home yet. we had to look for a place to buy a decent enough cake. one of our guy friends had this intense need to buy his mom a cake for mother's day at 1 in the morning. haha. Ü so there, i got home at 2am... just an hour late & it was a good thing that my parents were both asleep. Ü
oh yeah, someone wants to host me! wheee... i'll probably move in as soon as my account is set up & as soon as i get my mind working on a new layout. Ü i'm happy... well, not entirely... at the back of my mind, there's this eerie feeling of uncertainty & it pulls a harsh tug on my heart like as if i'm missing someone but i can't point out who exactly or why. *augh* i'm not making much sense anymore. goodnight world. Ü
jueves 9 de mayo de 2002 7:53:00 PM OMG! my host is closing down poopieland.net =~(
- this is the message for the hostees -
hostees: all subdomains will still be working until august so i'm giving you all lots of time to find a new host. it's been great having you all as my hostees.
=~( someone host me. =~( i'm nice & i don't use up much space. oh wellz, i still have 3 months or so to look for another host. =~(
i'm so bored. i just ate tuna spaghetti. yum. =9 the sky outside is turning a dull shade of gray-blue or blue-gray. whatever. i think it's going to rain soon. i remember playing in the rain with my folks before when i was young. it was so much fun. we even had this sort of pipe before that was useless & rain water would flow from it whenever it rained. we would use that as a shower & play under it. then when the rain would turn into a soft drizzle, my mom would bring out towels & we were required to have a warm bath. hmm... it was great. *smiles*
martes 7 de mayo de 2002 6:40:00 PM
Ü i've been listening to this song like crazy: only wanna be with you by rozwell. /sings i don't know what you do to me. i see eternity staring back at me. i made a vow to you that i'm gonna keep watching over you everytime you sleep. when i think about what i feel for you, it makes me think about all the things you do. i never once complained about the bad things... (blah blah) Ü ah basta, the song is really sooo kaka-in love. Ü maybe i'm just happy. i can't explain why. jeez! Ü anyway, if you want to laugh a bit to ease your troubles, go here. Ü
i stayed home the whole day because i wasn't able to wake up early to go to my dentist. yikes! Ü i had an appointment early in the morning & i woke up at around 11am. haha. silly me. Ü oh, before i forget, happy birthday to jason tomorrow. i know things went from bad to worse between us but i want you to know that my offer still stands... i still want to be your friend. remember jason, it's your call & i'm just here.
lunes 6 de mayo de 2002 1:07:00 PM
took a couple of online tests out of boredom. haha. Ü
another weekend has passed me by. it was wonderful & somehow i feel better about everything... about me. Ü often, life takes a turn & a twist that we do not expect but we should not question that. indeed, everything has a purpose & in due time, all the questions are answered. i love being me. Ü isn't that wonderful? Ü it's so hard to explain why i'm feeling like this & i'd rather not state it here for everybody to read. Ü if anyone wants to know though, you can just askme. i am more than willing to share my story with you. Ü by the way, i updated my links. Ü
viernes 3 de mayo de 2002 1:13:00 PM
just got home. it was so hot outside, i swear. Ü oh wellz, i'll be home for the rest of the day. Ü spiderman's showing today. i want to watch. Ü plugs: jackie (back after her pc crashed), psyche, mike, & meane.
jueves 2 de mayo de 2002 1:50:00 PM
yehey. Ü losta new guestbook entries. thanks to rocky, kitkat, nino, jason, anna, lily, & nikki (SHE'S BACK).
i just got back from iba, zambales last night at around 10pm. we left iba at around 3pm but stopped by subic first. we took pictures & shopped in subic then left at about 6pm & then damn!!! heavy traffic hit us in pampanga. it started in sta.cruz, pampanga all the way to san fernando, pampanga. grrr... the traffic was also horrible in the north express way (is that what you call it?) too & the cars were literally crawling. sheesh! when we got home, my dad just sat down on the couch to rest. he was driving all the time. then the lights went off. blackout! damn! the electricity was back though after 10 minutes while we were having dinner.
well, i got myself tan lines again. haha. Ü i think i got it while walking down the shore by myself. it was so nice & quiet. i felt at peace with the world. nuxxx... Ü i got some shells too while walking. i only swam once together with my cousin & most of the time, i was just on the shore staring out at the sea or inside the hut playing card games with my relatives. i even played tong-its with my tito & tita. the taya was piso-piso & my puhunan was 30 pesos. at the end of the game, i had 36 pesos & so i won by six pesos. yehey! Ü my cousins & i also played 1-2-3 pass. haha. it was so fun. the losers for the round had to get their faces smudged with red lipstick. i didn't lose at all & so i didn't get lipstick marks on my face. wheee. Ü
oh yeah, i watched i am sam before i left for zambales. damn, the movie made me cry. the story is really nice. Ü
