miércoles 23 de noviembre de 2005 1:17:00 AM broken by you ~ jordan knight first lonely night, what will i do? i feel my heart breaking in two i'm such a fool, when will i learn? i fell so deep then i got burnt
the paulord said, "love is... a lie... a deception we enact upon ourselves to justify how we feel about others.. i hate how i feel.. i can't help it.. i can only take so much pain... i'd rather staple my eyes than feel like this again..."
if you gave me just one reason why my heart just might let go maybe one day i will fall in love again but for now, i'll just leave my heart in two
heartbroken, yes i am. he hasn't officially broken up with me. nor have i. but you know what broke my heart? the fact that i grew tired. he says i'm a liar simply because i could not remember what mode of transportation i took going home yesterday. oh dear god. tell me he did not just break my heart because of that, please... he did. i'm so sad for him, for myself, for us. he put the phone down on me & he's ignoring me again. i respect that. i'm giving him the space he wants. i'm giving him the time he needs. i don't have enough energy to fight for what i want anymore. i still end up as the bad one no matter what i do anyway. i'm tired & i'm wretched. my heart is broken & maybe i'm the one who actually needs to get away from it all.
i love you, oneill. i gave you my heart. i made you my life. goodbye. someday, i hope love leads us back to where the road ended for us.
lunes 21 de noviembre de 2005 8:56:00 PM very special love ~ maureen mcgovern & i found a very special love in you
he gets it, he gets me. he does. much more than i think. :) i absolutely love oneill to bits. saturday night, i watched his gig at harmony bar, annapolis. we went to tomas morato afterwards with his bandmates. we then spent some alone time together & i cried my heart out. he hugged me & i felt my world fall back into place. sigh. i love him, i do! :)
sábado 19 de noviembre de 2005 6:00:00 PM why do we always hurt the ones we love ~ dan hill here we go again, hurting each other for no reason wondering why we keep repeating the same mistakes seems the more we give, the more we're disillusioned baby, what is it we're doing? are we so scared of give and take?
you work hard all week - doing errands you don't have to do; staying extra hours without pay just to get everything done - still, you can't please everybody. & nobody gets it.
you're sick & it's scaring the living life out of you but you'd rather not say anything because you have to stay strong & wear a mask of fake happiness for people that don't even care that much about you. & nobody gets it still.
you look forward to the weekend, thinking you're finally going to spend time with someone who gets it; someone who finally gets you. wrong. he doesn't get it. he only thinks that you were too busy to find time for him the entire week & suddenly, the whole world crashes down on you. thing is, you can take every fucked up thing everybody else offers but when it's him that scars you, you bleed. you love him like hell & still, he doesn't get it.
nobody indeed gets it. nobody gets me. :~(
viernes 18 de noviembre de 2005 9:40:00 PM my humps ~ black eyed peas
friday evening & i'm sooo looking forward to seeing oneill tomorrow. yawn. pictures from our 7th monthsary - when i officially found out from my doctor that i'm sick. ;_;
happy 7th monthsary. staying strong together no matter what.
kissing the man i want to spend the rest of my life with.
the perfect reflection of true love.
our attempt at being artsy. :)
i love oneill. when we found out i was sick, he was calm about it & assured me that everything's going to be fine. knowing i've got him, there's no need to stress over anything. i love oneill, he is my strength.
domingo 13 de noviembre de 2005 6:31:00 PM red light special ~ tlc i'll give you the red light special all through the night
we went a-drinking last night with his band, inkk, before & after their jam at dondi's place. before the jam, we were at 57th & after the jam, we were somewhere in west avenue: someone's birthday bash.
morning! antok si oneill, pikit pa eh!
take note of oneill's new do. :)
miércoles 9 de noviembre de 2005 11:18:00 PM i live for your love ~ natalie cole i live for your love every minute
i'm probably sick! i don't know yet. i took half the day off from work to go to the hospi with oneill. so far, so good but there are more tests coming up soon. whatever happens, i'm glad i know i've got oneill with me.
dinner at gateway mall after the hospi visit. kamot mata si baby. :p
happy after eating burgers & having good conv.
domingo 6 de noviembre de 2005 11:15:00 PM panaginip ~ p.o.t.
sunday night coffee with my girls after celebrating the eucharistic mass. it felt nice to sit back & chill. we had a lot of laughs - maalaala mo kaya! nth episode. starring kc concepcion as alla, sexbomb icee as icel, danica sotto as aiza, iya villania as jannica, & with the special participation of luis "lucky" manzano as oneill. hahaha.
sexy mares - aiza, me, & icel.
sábado 5 de noviembre de 2005 10:57:00 PM biggest part of me ~ ambrosia you're the life that breathes in me you're the biggest part of me
SO PUNCH DRUNK IN LOVE! :) let the pictures paint a gazillion words... :) sigh. :)
goodbye galera! ;)
miércoles 2 de noviembre de 2005 12:42:00 PM nobody ~ keith sweat i want the night for me & you so come here baby, let me do it to you don't be afraid cause i won't bite i promise to give it to you just the way you like
bored like a biatch! i'm waiting for my baby pie to call but he's still in the zzz zone. pffft. he's turning into a major sleepy head like yours truly. anyway, i hope we get to go on our semestral break getaway soon. like let's say, tomorrow?*crosses fingers*
the fam & i went to the cemetery in cavite yesterday. we visited my lolo andres, prayed for him & all but ended up playing 123 pass, crazy 8, & pekwa. i also ate more than i intended to. farkin spaghetti was damn good! note to self: exercise! yeah, right.
tagal tumawag ni oneill! bored. bored. bored. i definitely don't want to stay at home today. fudge!
